One of the biggest problems with being young is you know everything and yet you know nothing. I remember when I was 18 teen I was just trying to be a really good basketball player in high school because it was the only place I ever felt normal. The rest of the time I was a guy with too much emotion that said the wrong thing and never was really close to anyone. It was just hard for me to make relationships because inside I was just trying to figure me out.
That is the problem with emotional people. This world tells you from a very young age that emotion is bad. There is something wrong with you if you feel a lot so in many ways it takes emotional people longer to find the peace inside they so badly want. I see this all the time when I observe emotional young people with parents getting all angry that their daughter or son isn't more like other kids. I try to explain that is just a result of not being able to deal with the feelings they have inside. That when a young person gets mad, has a fit usually it has nothing to do with anyone but not being able to understand or handle the craziness inside. This is part of the reason I am so patient with Rocco although I must admit to feeling discouraged. He is at that crazy age of 18-19 and is living the little dream of getting up at clubs and being a cover band. He also is trying to deal with finishing school. I want to scream at him and say you are going to regret not taking school seriously cause you are fucked in this world without a good education. You are destined to work some dead end job 6 days a week, 12-18 hours a day just to make a living to feed your family. Your kids are fucked cause they won't have good schooling, parents that do not go to university generally do not have kids that go to university and in mexico that leaves few options. See Rocco wants to be in the Rock n roll hall of fame and to be honest he might have the natural voice for it.. but I just don't know if he has the drive. I have been doing this web stuff for the past 3 years and have seen lots of guys like Rocco who say they want to be something great but are not willing to make the sacrifices to make it happen. I am not even talking about anything big.. just save photos in a shared folder I can get to. Do a few cover songs with just him and the mic in front of a web cam in his room and save it to a file. Stupid simple. Any idiot can do that, it takes so little work but it seems like Rocco is more interested in being a cover band I guess. I don't know.. he loves to give me empty promises. Do I give him an ultimatum where I say listen you have deadlines now and if you do not deliver I am going to shutdown the social cobweb I made for you online cause it makes me look bad to continue to put effort into someone who isn't willing to put effort into himself... who always has a million excuses as to why he can't do something.. actually most times he does not actually have excuses.. he simply does not seem to have any idea of keeping his word... Last Saturday he was suppose to work with me.. I waited online for him to take the bull by the horns and he didn't even email me.. I must admit to being at my wits end.. do I really want to invest anymore time and effort into someone who doesn't seem to care about his future?? I know I am harsh and I am not saying I do not like the guy... I just need him to grow up and become a man. I need him to be someone whose word is his honor.. who when he says he will do something he will do it and I need him to listen... to be coached persay.. cause right now even though he doesn't have his own stuff ready it wouldn't take very much work to just sing in his room.. So we will see... maybe I should just try to find another person who can do hardrock... who is serious about being successful.. I am loyal to a fault.. I wonder how this will turn out.. the thing you learn when it comes to people is few actually want to succeed enough to make the sacrifices.. and success in music, in life takes everything you got.. arc angel of rock...question me: http://gebadia.com
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